Saturday, December 8, 2012

I'll Take That!

Well how neglectful of this blog have I been lately?  Sorry!  It's just, I have found some purpose!

And when I say "some" purpose, I think I mean that I have found something that occupies my mind and makes me get up and do something.  For me, it's called a job.  Funny how I sat at home for many years and was feeling so blah, so tired of my own mind and then I get a job and the spaces where there use to be room for doubt, strange thoughts and worrying, now is filled with other things.  Funny how I dreaded getting a job because it would involve being around actual people, and those people have made me realize, I like most people!! --Most, not all!

I am not telling you or anyone else out there suffering with thoughts that cripple their lives to go out and get a job and then all your troubles will disappear   Well, because they won't.  They are still here. They are still with me.  But...I think they have less room to bother me so much. They take a back seat to wondering what I need to do next, where I need to be, what I need to be doing and "worries" of that nature. I have to say, for me it has been a terrific revelation!

Yes, it only took 41 years to figure it out!  And I do have small worries about it lasting.  But for now, I am feeling pretty good.  And I'll take that!


  1. I'm glad that the job is giving less space for the stuff to bother you so much anymore, I hope that it continues and gets even better.
    best wishes, Laura x

  2. I missed you around these parts, but I am very glad that you are doing so much better! I agree with you, having a job or something similar that keeps you busy is a big help. Even though there are new worries that come with it such as 'work' worries, I would much rather have something 'real' to worry about that something that I created in my mind. I'm so with you on that, and I am so glad you are doing better!

    Ally (aka Yaya)

  3. Hey - good for you! I'm glad to hear that working has been a positive experience. One of the reasons I do so much volunteering at my church is because it has a similar impact on my emotional health. I get to think about other things and it does give me a purpose too.

  4. I've missed you, and it's good to hear from you! I'm so glad you've reaping positive benefits from the job. As much as I complain about my job sometimes, it does get me out there with people and gives me plenty to occupy myself with.