Unfortunately, I know this to be too true. So many times I have missed out on things because of the "walls" I have built around me, or around my heart. I really have few friends...but I have chosen this. So I can't really complain. I am confined by that wall and... I built it myself. I also have missed out on activities thinking, "I can't do that or I won't do that because of so and so maybe happening." It is a shame to look back sometimes and think of some of the things I could of done. That is why I am trying to open myself up to saying yes, more often. Instead of finding an excuse as to why I can't. It isn't easy, but I am usually happier afterwards for the experience I have gained, or even the fun I have had. And if I don't like it, then I have a legitimate reason not to do it again.