I was expecting someone different in my mind, from who my therapist turned out to be. But...It wasn't a bad thing. "Why are you here?" ---Uh, well....where do you want me to start? It is hard to try and encompass your entire life's struggles into a 45 min 1st session. After I left I was thinking of a million things I forgot to say. But all in all, I would say it went ok. I was told I am too hard on myself...yeah, I knew that. But she gave me some things to think about and focus on. So we'll see...
On a side subject she talked about how humans are naturally social beings. And how friends can play such important roles in our lives. I, of course, talked about not having any "friends" and how it seems so complicated to me. Like when do you call? Do you have to call everyday? Do you have to see them all the time? I mean things that for others seem to be intuition, to me are not so easily manifested. I like my privacy. I like to be alone. I do miss having people to call or talk to on occasion, but, you know, I am used to it. I guess the point is for me to get out of my comfort zone....but...I don't know. We'll see.
I also realized how I am SO like my mother. In SO many ways, that are just funny and weird. And at the same time SO not like her...or my dad. But I guess we all take on some attributes of the people we grew up around. And I realized some of those things I might have criticized her for are some of the same things I do myself. Uh! Don't you hate it when that happens!!
I don't know. I am going to continue seeing her at least twice a month. She also runs an anxiety group she said I might be interested in but, we'll see. It was nice to talk to someone though, who had no judgement. Just ideas and recommendations.♥