Sunday, June 24, 2012
This is a question that has been on my mind lately. I think it is something I have struggled with my whole life. Dreams, things that come true in your own mind, but may be entirely unreachable? Dreams, things that you desire to come true and you do your best to make come true and then they do? Dreams, things you think about coming true but never do because you don't work hard enough or do the right things to make happen?
See, I sound negative even talking about dreaming which to most is an ideal, pleasurable activity. To me is just brings on more questions and anxiety. I guess I have long associated dreams with goals. And to be honest I haven't had a ton of goals in my life. Why? Hum. I was never taught how to have goals? No one ever asked "What do you want out of life? And how do you plan to achieve it?" -That sounds like and may be, that I am blaming others. Maybe the blame should all be on me. But how do you reach a goal? You plan, you take steps to achieve, you dream? It's kind of hard to reach out for something that you have no idea of how to reach in the first place. Something that seems all together unattainable.. Isn't it?
As much as I talk about being tired lately, I do WANT to be positive. I do WANT to be happy. I do WANT to be full of energy! But maybe I just thought these things should happen. Maybe I thought you should have nice things and have a nice life and a nice outlook without having to work at it? Are you laughing at me? Do I sound completely insane? But this is how my mind has worked all my life. Is changing it just a dream?
What do you dream about? And how do you reach out to make it come true?
Posted by Shannon at 9:58 AM