I "feel" everything. I take everything personally, to heart. As in it makes me "feel" certain things about myself. Whether it is meant to or not. And I guess this applies mainly in the negative feelings category. If you are angry around me, I think you are angry at me. If you are sad, I might have done something to make you sad. If you are worried, I might be contributing to you worrying. If you correct me on something I feel awful! I don't take criticism well. Even if it is nice and even if only I take it critically!
I don't know why I am this way. I don't know why I do this. It is hard for me to be around someone I am close to if they are angry or sad. Yet, I get angry and sad and expect these people to understand it is not about them, and be around me. Maybe it is just too hard for me to accept someone else's negative emotions on top of my own? I don't know!
I just hate letting people down. And I guess I feel like I have done this many times in my life. From my parents to my kids and my spouse. I always feel I am the let down. If ONLY I could have done something different then their anger, or sadness or anxiety or criticism would be eliminated or diminished greatly. The more I think about it the less sense it makes! Yet I know I will continue to do this unless I figure out how to stop it or what makes it happen.
And honestly I feel I am alone in this matter. How could anyone else feel this way? Or is this normal? I have no idea, but I know it will take me a while to figure out how not to take everything personally!