I love reading everyone's blogs, but to be honest...I don't know what I am even blogging about. I'm telling you how I feel. That is about it. I love that you all are off on a trek finding new ways to cope with your illnesses through books, meds, CBT, etc... but I don't feel like doing any of that. I just don't!
I don't want to read a book on "Happy, Happy, Sunshine, Joy" and see how "MollySue" is now so much of a better person for following these instructions. I hate reading books on how to be happy! I don't want to change my meds. It is a pain in the A**! I don't want to remind myself, to remind myself not to do certain things so I don't feel certain ways. I just want to feel the right way to begin with.
Am I making any sense? I just want to be "normal"! That's all I have ever wanted! Is that too much to ask for? It's not like I'm asking for a new mansion and a million dollars!
This is when I feel like I might be bipolar... I am up, down and all around. But who knows...Sheesh!